Pause

Take a Step Back.

Yes, yes, I know life is fill with lots of ups and downs. But recently I felt like everything is moving so fast, heck, the whole year slipped by. What felt like a minute or two was actually a whole week zipping by and what felt like a week or two was actually months slipping by. I mean, yeah, I've heard of the saying that time waits for no man, and I guess that is true. Its kind of scary how time moves so quickly.

And from time to time I find myself dwelling in the past. I know for a fact its one of my horrible habits, going on and on about what I SHOULD HAVE, COULD HAVE or WOULD HAVE done. Sigh, doing that don't really get me anywhere but still I do it sometimes. Damn. Well, okay, I know its not exactly the end of the year but I've actually already made a new year's resolution. But I won't tell it just yet. = D

Well, sometimes I'm so busy with life, in the moment or dwelling about that moment I really need to just drop everything and just pause and enjoy the wonders of life. You guys can do this too. Just take a deep breath and enjoy the view of the vast, beautiful crystal clear sky. And just thank every wonderful thing you've ever had in life, just absorb the beauty of life and mother nature altogether and man, you'll feel so happy its like you're high on something! Well, it works for me and you'll never know if it works on you unless you give it a shot. Plus, it ain't bad to just be thankful for everything good in life. Oh, and remember to smile. = )

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is a gift to yourself.

I know that millions of people in the world has got the concept of forgiveness all screwed up., trust me. At one point I, myself got it wrong. Right now, every hour, minute and second that passes, someone, somewhere on earth is arguing with someone else, it doesn't matter if it is a friend, a best friend, wife, lover, boyfriend, girlfriend or a stranger. Things happen in our every day life and that, we have no power over, whatever happens, happens. Good or bad. And some people end up in more fights in a lifetime then other people. Life is, just that way.

Now, I'm not trying to sound like some big-ass professor or anything but what we CAN control is the way we respond during and after the commotion. I've seen countless people blame the clouds, the other party, their dog, cat, wife, husband, etc. Sigh, people, seriously, save it. Nothing happens anyways if you blame people and question why all this shit is happening to you or WHY ME? You'll never get an answer, my point is asking "WHY ME?" is by far the most pointless question in the whole world. Trust me.

Heh, the weirdest thing is when people say, "I'll never FORGIVE you!" Sigh, if you thing saying that will make the other party suffer, well, lets say its a 50-50 situation but most importantly you'll suffer too. Forgiveness isn't something to make the other party feel better, it is actually a gift you give yourself by letting go of the crap you've been holding onto and moving on. Now, the next time you want to do that, think again. = )

In summary,

The Year is Ending.

Its all ending, huh?

I know, I know, I know, I went missing for nearly half a year? Well, I had a good reason to do so okay. Well, like usual the reason would of course be something study related. Its a major exam okay? Yeah, I'm sorry. I'm pretty sure I went missing from the face of the internet for a good five to six months..I think? 

Okay, life is currently really awe-wait for it-some!!! That is because the major exam is obviously over and,uh,well its time to enjoy and relax. Eight years of studying all determined in this one major exam, tough,eh? Yeah, it is.Um, so yeah. It is actually sort of bittersweet that its all ending and moving on to high school. Yeah, it really is. It used to be January but look, its October now, damn time really flies. Hopefully I score for that major exam it helps determines what stream I'm going to. ARGH!!

Okay, = )

Okay, Alright.

Okay, alright, enough with the sad, depressing stuff, I can go on, and, on about Japan but I'll try not to. Okay, know what I've learn so far? NEVER EVER assume crap. after all, assume = making an ASS out of U and ME. Sigh. Want to know why I said that, let me tell you a very interesting story. One day, A told me we had a project to finish together, so, we teamed up. I thought A was doing the research and I was going to buy the stationary and papers to use , and A thought I was going to do the research and she was going to do the buying. SEE? ASSUMING SUCKS.

IT NEVER GETS ANYTHING DONE. So, the next day when we had to hand in our projects. We came early to finish it, as in someone got the research and someone all the things we need to finish it. But all we had was a bunch of stationary and papers. I stared at her, she stared at me, and this is how the conversation between us sounds like:

A : WHERE'S THE RESEARCH?
Me : Uh, I thought you did it. You DID it right?
A : HUH? I thought you did it?
Me : CRAP!!
*We both slapped ourselves*
A : Now WHAT?
Me : I don't know, uh, FAIL.

A : UGH!

YEAH, we ended up with a big fat F. Sigh. Lesson learnt.

Truth that hurts.

WARS

Wars. It goes all the way back since the beginning of mankind. Yeah, we are violent. But hey, I thought with something called evolution...we would have stop fighting wars a long time ago. But we never learned.

The SAD truth about WARS.

Wars. The sad thing about wars is that, its not the superiors that dies. Its the soldiers, the people. In all wars there is always collateral damage. its impossible to avoid. Soldiers fight in a war not really knowing why there are attacking another country. There are just like pawns in a game of chess. But this is different its not chess. People DIE.

Wars. Have you ever seen real war pictures? In newspapers or the Pulitzer Prizes? Its really, really, painful and it breaks your heart to see the pain and agony their going through. The most heart wrenching thing is seeing little children some barely even five, crying in pain, covered in blood, lost love ones, stuck in a nightmare they never asked for, they never deserved. Imagine what it must be like for them.

Seeing the pain, agony, suffer in their little eyes. Eyes that has given up hope of living on. Eyes that are filled with so much grief, so much tears, so much anger, so much hate. And all these children, people and soldiers suffer for what? For what really? Wars are a waste of time, a waste of life. What do we get out of a war? Victory? NO, we get piles of dead bodies, broken hearts, grieving families, crying children and so much more.

Will we ever learn our lesson. I don't know. seriously. I don't know. But, the great things about humans is we rise every time we fall. People will pull themselves together and live on, move on. Slowly but surely people will crawl their way back up.

Here is a poem dedicated to children around the world.

We Pray For Children

We pray for children,

Who give us sticky kisses,

Who hop on rocks and chase butterflies,

Who stomp in puddles and ruin their math workbooks,

Who can never find their shoes.

We pray for those

Who stare at photographers from behind a barbed wire,

Who've never squeaked across the floor in new sneakers,

Who've never "counted potatoes",

Who are born in places we never even thought existed,

Who never go to the circus,

Who live in an X-rated world.

We pray for those,

Who never get dessert,

Who watch their parents watch them die,

Who have no blanket to keep them warm,

Who can't find any bread to steal,

Who don't have any rooms to clean,

Whose pictures aren't on anybody's dresser,

Whose monsters are real.

We pray for those,

Who spend all their allowance before Tuesday,

Who throw tantrums in the grocery store,

And play with their food,

Who like ghost stories,

Who hide dirty clothes under the bed,

And never rinse out the tub.

Who get quarters from the tooth fairy,

Who don't like to be kissed in the forehead,

Who squirm in church and scream on the phone,

Who tears we sometimes laugh at,

And those smiles can make us cry.

And we pray for those,

Whose nightmares are a reality,

Who will eat anything,

Who have never seen a dentist,

Who aren't spoiled by anybody,

Who go to bed hungry and cry themselves to sleep,

Who live and move, but have no being.

We pray for children,

Who want to be carried,

And for those who must.

For those we never give up on,

And for those we don't have a chance,

For those we smother,

And for those who will grab the hand of anybody kind enough of offer.


Lets not fight. After all war never solved anything, and it never will solve anything.